grrrrrr

I really HATE hearing people call themselves FAT!!!
It's not like we can all be disney princesses!!

covet not

for as long as i can remember i have wanted to be a young woman's leader. they are so cool. they get to work with awesome girls and have fun every Wednesday night. it's a awesome job, that forever i have wanted. until about four months ago. then it was the last place i wanted to be for several reasons. i still think it's the coolest calling.then girls camp which was awesome but i have excepted that i'm not going to be in young woman's.







today i was put in young woman's




covet not

i can't remember

i knew i should have wrote it down when i woke up. all i really remember is that there were mermen, a mountain lake, angry humans with big trucks that ripped through the forest, romance, sacrifice, running, trees, drama, blood, tears, swimming, more romance. it was a great dream!

strange happenings

Last night i have a very strange dream!! the strangest part was that i wasn't in my dream! i was the story teller. watching it all unfold! i was thinking of writing about it here but decided that maybe i'll write is in short story form. if i can remember it!

I love girls camp

So two weeks before girls camp I was called to be the director. (The previous director moved at the end of May). I was way excited for the opportunity seeing how I love girls camp!! LOVE IT! And I was also way excited that I was able to put my own twist on what was all ready planned.

So here is My Top Ten list (please do not compare to Janelle’s list it just wouldn’t be right)

1.Saying good-bye- not to the girls but to big sister and handsome, they didn’t even flinch as I gave big hugs good bye on Tuesday morning, I was almost in tears but I sucked it up and they really did have great week hanging out with dad!

2. Mosquitoes-I evidently didn’t eat enough garlic before leaving town because regardless of the insane amount of bug spray that drenched all of our clothing not one of us was immune to the blood suckers.

3. Singing- I was told in the past that there really wasn’t a lot of singing at girls camp, so I worked to put an end to that and the girls loved it. Georgie, boom chicka boom, Lemie and many many more.

4. Being in charge- anyone who knows me knows that I like to put my ideas out there and it’s even better when they come to light

5. Hiking- because there were only 6 girls who needed to hike we decided it would be better to go on one hike all together. So we hiked to Heart Lake. By the end of the hike our bishop had been given the endearing nick name of the hiking Hitler.

6. Freezing nights- literally it froze everything from the water to the dish soap!! And because of a good friend (Wendy) I had a sleeping bag. It was a lot colder in the Idaho Mountains then in the California Mountains.

7. Swimming- we went swimming at Alturas lake I floated out in the lake on my little floating raft, while laying back and relaxing the wind picked up and waves were crashing over the top of the raft. I eventually made it back to the shore but not until falling off of my little raft and fighting the crazy white caps!!


8. Last meal-after three days of okay meals for camping and not really enough food to fill a tummy, we woke up the morning before we left expecting to eat muffins and apples and were given a feast of pancakes, and potatoes!! So yummy!!!

9. Nightly devotionals, and personal scripture study-these were new to Shoshone’s girls camp but really amazing to see the girls reading, learning, and sharing what they had found.

10. The girls- 13 amazing girls who reminded me that girls camp is amazing, friendships can continue to grow, never give up, move forward in faith, and we can do anything with the help of the Lord.

I’m certain I left something out but well that’s 10!

wanted to blog

i was hoping to blog today before i left for girls camp but well it's not going to happen. i wanted to say how grateful i am for all that i have been given, my family and friends. but i'll have to do that when i get home!!!

blogging is good for your health!!

it's true i read it in a magazine!!!
anyhow i've been meaning to write for days but i've been traveling the western USA which isn't much, planning girls camp and getting ready for summer school. oh yes and completely absorbed in stephanie meyer's book "The Host".
I thought it was Summer VACATION! i guess it is it's all the things i don't get to do while i'm at work very day!

summer vacation

i'm about to run away screaming. once again i have no idea how stay at home moms do it without going insane.

I Am Truely Sorry

I am making a public apology. Very public!! this apology goes to anyone has ever fallen victim to another complaining about themselves. now granted we all have our bad days. when we wake up and don't feel pretty, skinny, or that our life is not really that great, and if you've never had one of those days you're my hero and i want to be just like you.
now i don't think that it's wrong to feel this way on occasion but it's what we do when we have these very destructive feelings.
there are two options...
1. Suffer, feel sorry for ourselves, complain, cry, become depress, suffer from amnesia of who we really are Children of God, complain some more, rot, rot, rot...
2.Get over it!! i don't mean to sound insensitive here but some how (that's the tough part) We've got to remember that our worth is not determined by our pant size, what the scale says, or the appearance of our body, skin, hair, etc.

well i think the first choice is pretty simple but that's probably because i'm having a great day!!

maybe we should address the tough part, How do we get over it!
here are a few things that help me.

• Say a prayer, just try it even if i don't feel like it, i probably need it the most then
• Get up, put on make up, do my hair, put on some bling (bracelet, earrings, etc)
• Do something i like to do OR
• Do something that needs to be done (dishes, laundry, vacuum, etc)
• Talk to a friend, don't complain just visit
• Read a good book (The Good Book, peacemaker, I Am a Mother, If life were easy it wouldn't be hard, etc)
• Read: This is a test. It is only a Test

if these things have no affect on your bad day and your bad days seem to be more like bad weeks, or months i would suggest talking to someone about this who knows more than i do.

again i'm sorry for complaining. I am beautiful no matter what the stupid mirror says and so are YOU!!!

sweet schedual

7:30 wake up
8:00 Breakfast
8:30 pick up house
9:30 Play
10:30 play some more
11:30 Lunch
12:00 Walk to post office/park/ Library
1:00 story time
1:30 Quiet time
3:30 Play
4:30 quick pick up
5:00 Dad's home
6:00 Dinner
6:30 Play
7:30 get ready for bed
8:00 Bed time
yes this is the life!!!

schools out...

and not a minate too soon. in fact yesterday i was thinking it was about 3 weeks late. i just finished what i think is my best year. great class of super smart kids who were excited to learn and worked super hard. so here's to summer and being a mom which is a tougher job then kindergarten ever was.

i miss her

two months ago today was the last day that i got to spend with michelle. i'm not sure why tonight i'm having all of these feelings and tears lots of tears. i'm better now i'm moving on. i miss her like crazy. the last day we spent together was awesome. we went to a time out for sisters thing. i wasn't going to go but she told me she wouldn't take no for an answer. we had a blast. we sat in the back rows laughed a lot, we didn't cry too much i'm glad for that, we talked about everything that day, our kids, husbands, future, past, life, sadness, a lot of laughter and joy. i miss her so bad. here is a few things that come to mind when i think of michelle

1. she always could make me see the bright side of life. though so much junk that we have to put up with everyday she could always see the good.
2. she tells the truth, no matter when you wanted to hear it or not she would let me know!!
3. she is a real person, when i say real i mean genuine totally herself no matter what.
4. she loves everyone, judges no one
5. michelle interrogated the love of my life for me
6. she helped me pick out my wedding dress,
7. she makes me feel beautiful even on my ugly days
8. she's an amazing mother, i want to be like her, her kids are so important to her, she loved to just play with them, get dirty, make a snack, dance, sing, teach, wow is all i can say about it
9. she has an amazing testimony of where she came from, who she is and where she's going
10. no task was too big for her.
11. she was madly in love with her husband
12. she was never too busy or too sick to be a friend
13. she loves me

I think i could go on all night but i better go to sleep now that the tears have subsided for a moment.
I love you Michelle!

class pictures

it's not fair being a kindergarten teacher when it comes to class picture how can i compete i am a giant towering over 17 super cute kids. it doesn't matter what i do i will never look thin in this setting. such is life. the kids all look great!!

waiting for answers

okay so i went to the doctor today even thought i felt like a dork walking in totally healthy anyhow we started the testing process. i told the wonderful nurse that if it was a panic attack it might happen again when they take my blood. lol. i was fine just not a big fan of giant needles. i will get results tomorrow. Yeah it's kinda fun to stump the doctor but not really. hopefully we'll figure it out.

what's wrong with me

so about two weeks ago i was sick for like 4 days straight. but i'm better now Friday i had a headache that started about 10 in the morning subsided for a few hours then about 4:00 i fell asleep and woke up not able to stand for more than a few moments my head was aching and my body was weak. when i finally fell back to sleep i didn't awake till 10:30 at night. and even then i was a little shaky.
yuck yuck yuck
so some of you may be thinking this woman is insane and i haven't even got to the best part.
yesterday saturday big sister and i were on our way out for some quality girl time on our way i started having some serious abdominal pain. so we stopped first by the dollar store we walked back to the ladies room. within two minutes of getting out of my car i was on the floor in the ladies room. i had strange tingling sensations running through my whole body. my arms my legs, my face, my tongue my whole body. i was in a cold sweat, not really breathing, crying and in a lot of pain.
kudos to big sisters who was like mom when are we going shopping. love her gotta love her but she handed me my phone and i called the love of my life. i was trying to decided if i should call him or 911. it was a little scary. by the time he got to where i was about 15 minutes i was better well enough to drive home but still pretty shook up.
i'm better now but i'm sure i should go to the doctor and ask her what she thinks about the whole thing.
grrr sometimes i feel like such a drama queen.