taking a walk

it's an unwelcome memory lane one of my childhood days of abuse, neglect, foster homes, sleepless nights, endless worry, being the mom at 7, blood, police cars, lots and lots of tears. i could dig deeper but it's not pleasant so if i can get a way with stopping here i will.
Now a few of my kindergartners, are now going though what i went through starting in first grade. how do i show them they are loved, how do i teach them who they really are, how do i teach them that what is happening to their moms isn't right and they need to rise above it and not find themselves in that place when they are older, how do i teach them of their worth, how do i teach them...
i have not recollection of how my teachers did this for me but i know they did that's why i'm a teacher, i want to help these children, i want to teach them all of these things, to believe in them that they can do ANYTHING!! and show them, teach them, lead them to do ANYTHING!!
I want them to know the Savior and that HE is their for them

Abide with me; ’tis eventide.The day is past and gone;The shadows of the evening fall;The night is coming on.Within my heart a welcome guest,Within my home abide.
O Savior, stay this night with me;Behold, ’tis eventide.O Savior, stay this night with me;Behold, ’tis eventide.
Abide with me; ’tis eventide.Thy walk today with me Has made my heart within me burn,As I communed with thee.Thy earnest words have filled my soul And kept me near thy side.
O Savior, stay this night with me; Behold, 'tis eventide. O Savior stay this night with me; Behold, 'tis eventide.
Abide with me; ’tis eventide,And lone will be the night If I cannot commune with thee Nor find in thee my light.The darkness of the world, I fear,Would in my home abide.

Report Cards

I have mentioned before that my current kindergarten class is the most unique i've had in all my years of teaching. okay this is only my 6th year but in that year i've taught over 250 students it adds up fast!! anyhow the time has come to fill out the lovely report card. most teachers put grades into the computer all quarter then the report cards come out pretty and clean and not a lot of work for a teacher who keeps on top of their grading. this is not the story in kindergarten well maybe some magical kindergarten world that i can't even imagine but in my kindergarten reality report cards consist of approximately one hour of testing per child, deciphering the testing, filling in hundreds of little boxes for each child to tell the parents what letters the student knows. numbers, phonic awareness, participation, personal hygiene and so much more.

well we've finished the testing

now i get to test my own patience as i fill in the boxes!!

i love kindergarten!!

over dosed

okay so in my defence it's been a week since i lost a ton of blood and i'm finally feeling like i kind of have an idea about what's going on around me. in the mist of all of my drama the kids got strep! lovely i know so they started medication at a friends house because i couldn't be in contact with those germs or i could end up back in the hospital. so they have been home since saturday the friend handed me the antibiotics said one tsp morning and night. so i did what i was told i even double checked on the bottle to make sure it was one tsp. well i didn't look close enough at the spoon that i've been using to administer the medication, this morning is stopped for some reason and looked at the spoon. yeah not good i've been giving them twice the dosage since saturday evening! i was really thinking all along this is not going to last 10 days! Wow is all i can say welcome back to reality!

Families can be together forever

well here are a few pics! contrary to popular belief we didn't all try to have our eyes closed but in our defence the ground was covered in snow so it was bright outside!!

My week in a few words

1 in 200 at 16 weeks

hemorrhage

Blood loss

Blood count

IV's

Bed Rest

good books

pretty flowers

insane boredom

prayers

Hugs

Faith

Oct 11th

I am currently awaiting pics from the temple today but here are a few from this evening!! Enjoy!!

Catch the Fever

so i struggled to find something to do tonight for the beehive activity!

well it came together pretty well
we read from D&C 2,
talked about our families,
and filled in a Family Tree!
the girls loved it!!
yeah!!
hope to get them excited about family history!
wish me luck!!

playing with pansies

After a late night at homecoming, it was a difficult to get out of bed at 7:30 but it was so worth it to be able to work on the grounds of the temple. we planted pansies and tulips. The young women had a great time and we're excited to see the fruits of our labors when we return in a few weeks

so close i can hardly contain myself

Today after school the love of my life and i are reviewing and signing papers for my love to adopt the presidents!! yippy!

i'm so ready to find a new profession

like i need a reason to complain

that's a bad word

Yesterday
big sister says @#$*^,(it's not as bad as you think it is)
i ask where did you here that?
A boy at the babysitters says that
Big sis don't say that it's not a nice word

Today
Mom if little brother says @#$*^ tell him not to it's not a nice word

primary program

big sister took part in the primary program today! she stood up looked around, and laughed when she looked at me! they she said her part " I came to a family and received a body. Earth life is a time to learn and prepare for eternal life." so proud i was!!

i told ya so!

so didn't get any criticism this week! cause i'm a dang good teacher! it's probably a good thing because i'm a little emotional as of late!

I'm a dang good teacher

i'm sure i've said it before and you can count on me to say it again!! i'm a dang good teacher!! granted my first few years of teaching were a little shaky but i feel like I have a True given talent to teach! i'm sure that this belief doesn't help my pride issue but well i deal with it and unfortunately i let my pride get the best of me today! i know what i'm talking about and i don't like to be second guessed and i'm not a big fan of constructive criticism. it's nothing new i've always been this way. prideful!! hopefully tomorrow will be better!